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aaa | ULTIMATE IMPORTANCE « E EQ INS 4/4 & 11/4 [1015.50] PROP TAX DUE 4/10 & 12/10 Quarterly Income Taxes: 4/15 • 6/15 • 9/15 • 1/15 usually 1K to IRS & 500 to FTB GET FORMS ONLINE . . . pub17 the 11th • monthly bills» 10th • Mid November Distrubution • REG TOY> 7/1 • old webmail pw: MeABassmann [Dreamhost: MeABassmann1A] • NOW We&IBJammin4NuPW SS Jackie # 443 42 8353 • • • • Chaz # 546 80 3052 MEDICARE • • • J:[old] 1R93-JQ9-DJ15 [new/alt] 4F17-UP5-VH65] C: 8P09-JA5-VV15 • • • ANTHEM BLUE CROSS J: JQE 081A76721 ...Group 07MS00 [Plan Med Supp] C: JQE 610A77712 ...Group CASUPWP0 [Plan F] VACCINES: ME: COV & FLU & SHINGLES 1&2 [ALL @ CVS] RSV LAST YEAR, NO NEED NOW JACKIE: COV, FLU DILS ARE IN SAFE BOA CV1 CV2 1234 0828 667 4313 0722 7459 9756 4321 5678 0428 902 4388 5761 6688 4604 8765 9876 0829 045 4266 8418 3261 4570 6789 ![]() |
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1 WEDNESDAY GNEW YEARS DAY!! |
2 THURSDAY Reneé PAMA Spir Councelor 628 233 7091 to re'sched in Jan TALKED TO... & KEEP IN TOUCH WITH: Ron Stanek, Dan Parsons, Dave Rotenberg, Dave Fox, Debbi Landshoff, Beth Delson Need 2 call Nancy, Carol, Chaz W, Bill K & Cynth, Bruce Jewett, Kevin Borges, |
3 FRIDAY re: NY EVE DRAW DR JAVERBAUM ON TEST RESULTS: SHE NEEDS ENDROCHRONOLOGIST DR CHAYCHI - NEED REF. WILL BE THERE NEXT TUES? TS4 VERY HI BUT P4 OK UNUSUAL PROBLEM!! [Grace Kim was her endro... still mine 4 diabetes] but Javer recc'd Chaychi so use her!! called Dan Carey 603 391 6881 Private PT J stood up 3x AM & 4x PM!!! -7X TOTAL !!! better w/heel lift J needed 2nd sling because of sliding down in recliner - arguement... get walking soon |
4 SATURDAY J DIDN'T HAVE BAD PAIN BUT DIDN'T WANT TO TRY TO STAND... |
Nurse Anya Sander *** PAMF/SUTTER HEALTH PALLEATIVE CARE 650 853 2240 TRANSPORT 4.8/122 ONE ACCESS <<< (510) 648-2085 we almost used but cancelled 2X SEQUOIA HOSP 170 Alameda de las Pulgas Redwood City, CA, 94062 |
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5 J HAD WORST PAIN EVER, NEEDED 2 DILS 2 GABAS 1 DULUX ...finally slept ish |
6 √ CALL Hannah @ SM School ... 714 914 4391 RE wed & CASH √ Dan Carey 603 391 6881 Private PT √ 1100 DR BERQUIST eeeek!!! 130 monique -twin pines |
7 √ ASK DAAAVW RE ACCOUNTNT mark sommer 650 570 4100 borel ctr √ RE-ORDER DILAUDID @ TEDS [14] waiting for auth... send from JAV to Dr Kim's 4J SEE FRIDAY NOTES >>> PS4 VERY HI BUT P4 OK - - UNUSUAL PROBLEM!! today J seems low cog and hesitant - maybe too much dilaudid ? 3? new years eve was blood draw- Dr Chaychi - DR JAV [NEUROLOGIST] RECOMMENDED FOR J'S ENDROCHRONOLOGIST - this wouldn't account for increased fibro pain? KIM was j's current endro... but dr Chaychi is now & will call soon & got Dr Jav's blood test report soon hopefully √ called Nubia @ dr jav's to get DOCS FAXED 2 Kim/Chaychi |
8 DONATED 55 TO HOUSE DEMS DCCC - TAKE IT BACK W/OPENS FROM RUMP APPOIMNTS YEAH RIGHT SURE THING called DONNA W/ PATH... 408 593 6114 comes 12:30-1:00 ish 1-130 CP 2:00 - WAS 1:15 2ne 4 Hannah @ SM School ... 714 914 4391 - $230 cash 130 san miguel way san mateo i need 2 read & do tests 4 dr BERQUIST HELP 'D MONIQE W/ TV |
9 Lunch w/ Daaaave 1130 el c @ whipple- burma spice Dan Carey 603 391 6881 Private PT 8-11 Suzi @ pioneer got LAND# call from REPUBLIC SERVICES RE J'S RETIREMENT CHECKS FOR SEP NOV DEC JAN BEING UNPAID... CANCELED THEM AND MAKE NEW ... DIRECT DEP THEM WILL GET LETTER COVERING TODAYS CHANGES IN 2-3 DAYS 800 664 6129 - 5 TALKED TO MICHAEL J'S SS# 8353 NEED TO FIND OUT IF THIS REPUBLIC COVERS LORAL OR LOCKHEED NEW PROB W/ LEGAL AND GENERAL LIFE INS- REALLY A RETIREMENT PAYMENT FOR J'S @ 900+/MO WAS THIS BFI??? |
10 PHIL HERE 130 MELE TAKES OFF QUARTERLY INCOME TAX 1 - 4 - 6 - 9 J HAS BAD UTI PAIN... CALLED PATHWAYS THEY WILL CALL SAT AM WITH ADVICE NOV 28 WAS E-RING INSTALL |
11 CANCELLED! LINDA JOHN & LIZ ARRIVE AT 12- 1230 GOT UQORA OTC UTI PRODUCT |
RE INCOME TAX... THERE IS A LARGE FOLDER CALLED EDD DOCS IN THIS COMPUTER DAAAVE RECOMENDED CPA mark sommer 650 570 4100 borel ctr SM PATHWAYS MAIN # 888-755-7855 Tracy@Pathways 408 773 4290 initial N :Yosiah N. Brittany 6-346 0221 OT. RUSTY 6-933 0277 N. HOLLY BERNS PT. Dan 6 669 9577 |
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12 J in bad shape - uti etc. not want all pills... but some dils dull the pain |
13 • • • 12-2 MIKE SETTLES AM √ med supply re catheter lidocaine J needs nurse attn: uti - get sample call pathways for nurse Dr Chaychi -???????????????? •RE-ORDER DILAUDID@TEDS ASK DR BERQ RE PSA TEST I NEED TO SEE DR NOURI CARDIO RE FOOT SWELLING & watchman 4 afib DAVE'S ACCT FROM VACATION Mark Sommer: 650 570 4100 |
14 ORDER REFILLS 4 J & I incl dilaudid 1130-1200 Josiah here CANCELLED! J to ER ALSO GET MY GRACE KIM'S LAB ORDER FILLED - EMAIL CAME TODAY 16:56 INCOME TAX DUE look online 4 quora 4 uti wedge 4 bed |
15 get perscripts from CVS called palleative Anya's # for dila refill new Rx DIGNITY Q'S 4 JACKIE for LINDA'S 12:00 LINDA MACKIN says antihist eye drops are ok & take alt antibiotic till results in income tax- paid 1/4 est. ask DR Berquist: results/hosp calls for "KEFLEX" cranberry pills-quantity NO e ring W/ higher levels |
16 »»»»»»»»»»»»»out?»»»»»»»»»»»»»» EEEEK have serious symptoms of cold nose - running-sneezing etc, took 3 6-5 drops mms & 6 or more nasal saline washes... WAS WAY BETTER PM! 915 ZOOM ANYA SANDERS will re- order Dilt & need to start using Fent25patch!!! maybe >>> 1030 DONNA - PATHWAYS very helpful... I should get my heart fixed! called dr berquist at 230 <<<<<<<RE new Rx :?KEFLEX Guy called 4 2ning 650 787 8300 wcb |
17 FIRST Fent25patch!!! »»»»»»»»»»out?»»»»»»»»»»» • wow this AM my cold seems to have gone? just a little nasal congestion... • the RX for J [KEFLEX] is coming soon, Dr Berq office wants her to take 1K 2x/day [2x500]as opposed to the ER Dr Lee 500 2x/day... also Linda Makin called to ditto the message then the hosp called and sid update there were 2 pathogens E-COLI & ENTEROCOCCUS so now it's macrobid!! maybe new Rx KEFLEX -- NOT!! MACROBID!! arrives!!!? |
18 for uti MACROBID!! |
WATCHMAN 4 AFIB ... ONE TIME TREATMENT! ASK CARDIOLOGIST NOURY ASAP!! J needs to use Fent25patches!! UTI MEDS:THE HOSP GAVE HER "CIPRO" INITIALLY, BUT THAT DIDN'T WORK MUCH SO WE USED AN OLD "NITROFURANTOIN" INSTEAD AND IN 2 DAYS THE PAIN WAS 85% GONE... WAITING FOR THE "KEFLEX" TO ARRIVE & WE'LL TAKE THAT of course... |
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19 JACKIE'S COGNITION WAS SLOWLY DROPPING... FROM THE FENTANYL 2 DAYS AGO... I KEPT THINKING I HAD GIVEN HER MORE DILAUDIDS AND FORGOT TO CHART THEM ON THE CALENDAR!! TO ACCOUNT FOR HER LOW COGN |
20 FORTUNATELY, TODAY I DIDN'T REDO THE Fent25patch!!! REMOVED IT >>> •RE-ORDER DILAUDID@TEDS 11 AM -ME @ DR BERQUIST EEEK! I shoulda took a diltiazem or 2 Camera updick OOOOWWW may hurt for 2 more days... starting w/ 3 vgs!/mo starting finasteride already getting alfuzosin |
21 INCOME TAX » HELP! «« B4 APRIL «« EEEK! FINALLY NOTICED IT WAS THE FENTANYL THAT WAS LOWERING JACKIE'S COGNITION.. IT WAS DOWN TO ≈ 40% TODAY - LET US NOT FORGET!! - SHE HAD A MYSTERIOUS & UNDIAGNOSABLE 100+ DAY MAJOR CEREBRAL COLLAPSE STARTING WITH CEISURES A YEAR AGO AND STILL HAS A VERY COMPROMISED NERVOUS SYSTEM - THE FENTANYL SEEMS TO RE-CREATE THOSE SYMPTOMS... ESPECIALLY COULDN'T ANSWER QUESTIONS... VERY SLEEPY NEEDS WAKE-UP PROMPTING OFTEN ordered amaz 2 warm white 18" kitchen flourescent lights... maybe tomorrow? |
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23 MELE AWAY - NITA HERE. . HE HAS LIVR ME TO LAB 12pm can't get Kim order need on FRIDAY>> J VERY LOW COGNITION ALL DAY... take J - BP & weight - IF 140'S NEED MEDS √2 PACKS GLOVES AMZ √12 - 2 PM PURCOR -will bring another station next mo √4 pairs of TERAISE 6 diopters AMZ ≈ $21 [MAX SIZE] |
24 . . . MELE BACK 730 ISH FAST: 4 KIM ORDERS 96 count poise #8 arrives AMZ HOPE VERY LOW COG GETS BETTER SOON!!!! J HAD BIG BM W/ INTRUSION >>> keep detailed notes on dinners!! take J - BP & weight daily CALLED IN RX FOR J ALBUTEROL CHECK W/ TED'S next wk TO SEE IF DELIVERY WAS REQUESTED WRONG!! [TOOK 3 WEEKS LATE]... HAVE NEW ONE W/ 3 MORE DOSES @ 1MG !!! CALLED RX FOR refill OZEMBIC 1MG too early... THEY NEED AUTHORIZ - MAYBE /NOT ... FEB 14?? |
25 take J - BP & weight daily |
thurs 23rd - HEARD FROM ANYA - [SHE'S OFF TILL TUES 28TH] BUTRANS PATCH MIGHT HELP 5MG - WAIT 24 HRS - WORKS FOR 1 WEEK [the nasal spray cuts off opiod effects immed] THERE'S A MAJ DILAUDID SHORTAGE- they tried a dozen pharmacies - BUT IT'S ULTIMATELY NOT APPROVED 4 LONG TERM OUR GP MIGHT HELP - OR PAIN MGMT CLINIC PAMF IS "PALLEATIVE CARE" NOT PAIN MGMT. SILK ROAD IS THE LARGEST ILLEGAL DRUG TRANSACTION WHO'S FOUNDER WAS JUST PARDONED BY tRUMP |
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26 . . . MELE AWAY take J - BP & weight daily ordering 4 PEPTONIC energy powder for me & J ≈ $184 from ADVANCED NUT - sounded like it would help J 2 NEW PAIN MEDS FOR JACKIE: TONIX PHARMACEUTICALS NEW DRUG APP FOR TONMYA [TM] FOR FIBROMYALGIA ALSO NEW NON-OPIOD PAINKILLER: VERTEX PHARMACEUTICALS JOURNAVX SEE AHA NEWS SCIENTIFIC AMERICAN>> |
27 •RE-ORDER DILAUDID-TEDS? CALLED IN RX FOR ALBUTEROL CHECK W/ TED'S TO SEE IF DELIVERY WAS REQUESTED or auto-ship 12:00 RENEé here 4 social/emotional support - J WAS CONSIDERABLY SPACED OUT, COULDN'T HARDLY TALK... A LITTLE BETTER BY 4:OO MAYBE THE NEW NORMAL? GIVE JACKIE THE NEW IMPROVED FORMULA » needs ice cream! take J - BP & weight daily |
28 TOOK HIM ... PHIL'S stint operation CALL DAVE'S ACCOUNTANT Mark Sommer: 650 570 4100 DAN PT 4:30 got her up 4x & marching!! GIVE JACKIE THE NEW IMPROVED FORMULA » needs ice cream! |
29 恭喜發財 1130 Daniel 2 nurse [10!] 650 669 9973 J is kicked off PATHWAYS... but Dr B can get it back..? ? . 3:30 ME dr NOURI @ RE FOOT should i get valve surgery? what is the % leak of mitral valve? getting monitor for 1 week & ultrasound on 2/25 BP 107/63 % 212.8 lbs ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ CALL DAVE'S ACCOUNTANT Mark Sommer: 650 570 4100 GIVE ACKIE THE NEW IMPROVED FORMULA » needs ice cream! |
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<<<< Nurse Anya Sander PAMF/SUTTER HEALTH PALLEATIVE CARE 650 853 2240 CHAZ W WILD NEW "CARNIVORE NO CARB" DIET CARNIVORE DIET OR NO CARBS --- NO MIGRANES WAS DOING KETO AND VEGS.. NOW EATS JUST QUALITY BEEF W/ BUTTER OR PORK OR LAMB CHUCK ROAST USE MINERAL SALT -- CELTIC SALT - MAKES HIS OWN YOGURT AND ONLY VEG IS ORGAIC CABBAGE OXALITES CAUSE JOINT PAIN IN SPINACH ALMONDS TEA CHOCOLATE HAS CHIC BROTH FOR BREAKFAST HIS A1C IS 6.5 EDGE OF DIABETIC NOW IN LOW 100'S GOES TO 115 AFTER EATING ONLY DRINK WATER & DECAF ... NO WINE BEFORE HIS A1C WAS 6.6 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 2 NEW PAIN MEDS FOR JACKIE: TONIX PHARMACEUTICALS NEW DRUG APP FOR TONMYA [TM] FOR FIBROMYALGIA ALSO NEW NON-OPIOD PAINKILLER: VERTEX PHARMACEUTICALS JOURNAVX SEE AHA NEWS OR HOW ABOUT PLAIN OLD MOBIC? |
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2 - MELE AWAY - NITA HERE 12-230 text her for sooner apt- yam up 2nd 3 years ago [name?] 104 Wycombe Ave SC [off dartmoth & tierra linda ] 832 545 8260 +25¢ only in tenor Q230 DONATED 150 TO ACT BLUE 4 HOUSE RACE CALL BRAD RE DILAU CALLL PHIL • • GIVE JACKIE NEW IMPROVED FORMULA » needs ice cream! |
3 • • • DAY 5 OF HEART MON CALL BRAD RE DILAU CALL PHIL 1230 TUNED CYNTHIA CALL DAVE'S ACCOUNTANT •RE-ORDER DILAUDID-TEDS |
4 • • • DAY 6 OF HEART MON 7AM I TOOK MAIN PILLS 9PM ELEQ+ J SEVERLY OUT, ON 1 DIL FOR PAIN JUST REMOVED THE BUTRAN PATCH, DIDNT HELP PAIN LOWERED COG. J HAS NEW UTI -TOOK 2 LEFT-OVER MACROBIDS SO FAR - 4 MORE 2GO MAYBE IMPROVMENT??? ask dr BRINSKY RE MORE? TO E.R.? 2 POSSIBLE NEW PAIN MEDS ? GET HER BACK ON H HEALTH? - NEEDS NEW E-RING IN 3 WEEKS - NEEDS PROLIA INJ NEXT WEEK I GOT DIA MAYBE FROM FORMULA? ALSO THREW UP BIG@ 145 PM! FEEL VERY SHAKY LIKE LOW SUGAR BUT WAS OK @117 • Ordered $200 of POISE #8 PADS & 2 collars for M husband ≈$ 60 DAVE'S ACCT Mark Sommer: 650 570 4100 7 PM I NEED ELIQUIS |
5 • • • LAST DAY OF HEART MON took main pills 11PM 930 LINDA MAKIN W/ "HAT" 4 J -better to use jar against vaj for U capture J TO HELP ME LAUNCH LAPTOPS 4 TAX √√TRY TO CAPTURE J U Phil in bad crash on way 2 ER car out of commission-- hurt back-- had to deliver home from ER try mon tue or thurs Alex Lapidus 299 Stilt Ct FCY Bald^ 230 me 5 yrs cash • 650 269 8101 |
6 • • took ele @ 2pm - & 1AM ... mains not INCOME TAX » HELP! «« B4 APRIL «« PROBS W/ U SAMPLE... DR BRINSKY /LINDA MAKIN - NEVER SENT ORDER TO SEQ LAB... GOT AT 1130 TO RE ROUTE THRU DR BERQUIST..YES DELIVERED TO THEM AND THEN QUEST ≈ 1230 PROB NOT TILL MON ask DR BRIN RE REFIL ON ALBUTEROL FOR NEBULIZER & POSSIBLE PAIN MEDS ALBUTEROL SULFATE 2.5MG/3ML*** 1/22 TEDS!! held 4 ins prob... so paid $25 NEW RX FOR PAIN: TONIX PHARMACEUTICALS "TONMYA" - FIBROMYALGIA VERTEX PHARMACEUTICALS "JOURNAVX" - STRONG PAIN GET PATHWAYS TO KEN MARTIN DNC CHAIR $110 JACKIE HAS NOW REVERTED BACK TO A NON-COMMUNICATION MODE FROM MONTHS AGO WHERE THERE ARE NO REPLIES TO Q'S ON MOVING, EXERCISING, LET'S DO SOMETHING. ETC... HOPEFULLY THE UTI IS CAUSE SHE ISN'T GETTING FENTANYL OR BUTRANS PATCHES CAUSE I WAS AFRAID OF THIS STATE.. SAYS SHE IS FEELING OK JUST said ok to getting up and trying to march in place~ WAS SOMEWHAT RESPONSIVE & STOOD 2X |
7 • • duuh • mains@ 345pm √yes √TOOK OZEMBIC 1MG √ EMILIO CALLED - GET $80 WED. SEE DETAILS>>>> √ OOH OOH pathways called!! re apt tomorrow>> √BRAD & RICK HERE!! got old drum/record stuff & 2 of my amp/spkr units Mikey to get some moth spray today!! √call berquist re capture not strictly sterile and overlook wrong pathogens if possible √ASK TO GET HH BACK AND ALSO LOW LEVEL ANTIBIOTICS ... NEW APPT TURS!! [NEXT SCHED MEET-WAS NEXT MARCH] !! MISSED 2:45 CALL FROM BERQUIST RE J RX - NOT AT CVS AS OF 7PM. ted's? MAYBE SHE HAS PORTAL @ DIGNITY? √called ANYA palleative re getting the NEW pain meds for J...[&DILAUDID?] "TONMYA" - FOR FIBROMYALGIA "JOURNAVX" - A NON-OPIOD PAIN MED & ASKED 4 RETURN WITH PATHWAYS H.H. 650 853 2240 GET TAX HELP! « B4 APRIL Mark Sommer 650 570 4100 called 2/5 QUOTE 4 THE YEAR [CENTURY?] -7WEEKS "IT ONLY TOOK 53 DAYS AFTER ELECTION [W/ONLY 30% OF POWER IN REICHSTAG] FOR HITLER TO DESTROY DEMOCRACY IN GERMANY...tRUMP [THE UBER-ACHIEVER] IS TRYING TO BEAT THAT RECORD" |
8 • 6AM ELEQ § § —» forgot mains... MELE -BACK & SUN ALSO 1200 Linn Trinh 2615 Hastings belmont Q: 250 Yam C3 4y ago - 919 272 4603 THE CALL said "spam risk" .... SO DO ANSWER ALL OF THESE!! ↙↙↙↙↙↙ 3:00 Heather from PATHWAYS!! 408 431 4177 FIND OUT ABOUT PUREWICK!! J WAS NOT HAPPY W/ HER ATTITUDE- I ALMOST LOST THE CHANCE TO GET THEM BACK!! call 650 269 8101 re wed apt? |
NO WINE!!! NO CARB LIFE -- HE'LL SEND INFO GIVE IT 90 DAYS - EVENTUALLY CAUSES KETOSIS GIVES CLARITY OF MIND grass fed beef from costco cook in beef tallow: 100% wagyu beef tallow the fat heals - protein repairs eat lots of fat one vid they mention OXOLATES AND RECC S A MAG GLYINNATE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ TRANSACTION W/ EMILIO ON FRI 1:10 PM SET FOR ACTION ON MONDAY: SELL LOOCKHEED 240 SHARES [357 LEFT] TO GET ≈ 79K FOR NEXT 2+ MO. [AFT TAX] WILL DEPOSIT TO OUR BANK ON WED. LEAVING ABOUT ≈ 250 K TOTAL OR $210 K [AFT TAX] - [TAXES ARE ≈ 25%] LAST YR LMSC WENT UP ONLY 3% ALL OTHER EMILIO HOLDINGS ARE GONE!!! WE STILL HAVE H&R & ?¿ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ OPTION + SHIFT: `⁄€‹›fifl‡°·‚—± Œ„´‰ˇÁ¨ˆØ∏”’» ÅÍÎÏ˝ÓÔÒÚÆ ¸˛Ç◊ı˜Â¯˘¿ OPTION: `¡™£¢∞§¶•ªº–≠ Œ∑´®†Á¨ˆØ∏“‘« ÅÍÎÏ©ÓÔ˚Ò…Æ Ω≈Ç√ı˜Â≤≥÷ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ |
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9 ‹•› mains 815AM 1100 • CAROLYN appr/ $50 650 380 3217 TXT 635 16th MP yes,console, do springs in 2 weeks... TREY NORMAN TO VISIT 3? 330? 4 GREAT TIME!! ? CALL LEANN? TONIX PHARMACEUTICALS NEW DRUG APP FOR ... TONMYA [TM] FOR FIBROMYALGIA NON-OPIOD VERTEX PHARMACEUTICALS JOURNAVX... AHA NEWS: SCIENTIFIC AMERICAN>> |
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11 MAINS @ 11PM can this ANNUAL WELLNESS BE done video & with nurse?... YES in 2 mo! XXX J Dr Brinsky & Prolia Inj. WCB :: <:-|> <;-)> • »:-» WE CAN GET linda makin HERE > IF WE postpone FOR 2MO - TO MARCH/APRIL 430 J DR BERQUIST URI CALM - GOOD SENDING E-RING RX TO CVS KEFLEX FOR LONG TERM ANTIBIOT ECOLI? SHOWS NOW CRANBERRY WILL HELP MAYBE LOOK IN BED IN 2 MO LADDER THEN MAYBE PROPHYL ANTIBIOTICS METHENAMINE LONG TERM [HIPREX] 2X/DAY BEST IS KEFLEX -CAN PAUSE IN 2MO PYRIDIUM TURNS URIN ORANGE PUREWICK GOOD IDEA CALL 1866 248 1120 -CVS FOR ALL NOW- GOT 2 DAYS MORE MACROBID THEN TRY -METHENAMINE WHEN INFECT GONE -NEW E-STRING -FOLLOW UP IN 1 MO |
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13 >>> 1AM>>> 1-130 doug lunch!! ??? in the rain?? instead of dental nightmare!?? check w/ PATHWAYS IF NEW E-STRING DATE IS CHANGED (<«-»>) ... «<(•)>» |
14- at least get mains 5 PM!! check w/ PATHWAYS IF NEW E-STRING DATE IS CHANGED -DONNA WILL CALL? last dose--- TAKE OZEMBIC 1MG !!! INCOME TAX » HELP! «« B4 APRIL «« RE INCOME TAX...>>>> MIKE PITTS RECCOMENDS: SELIGMAN Byrne, Ron Seligman & Co., Inc. 1700 El Camino Real, STE 506 San Mateo, CA 94402 Phone: (650) 345-8400 I called 855am :: heard from Ron @ 10 :: now I will need 2 send pdf's & other info re 2020 -845- got call from pamf pain mgmt Because no primary care physician there [Sutter] they can't schedule a pain mgmt appt- we need dr Brinsky [Dignity] to get one NEED Dr Berquist send to Pathways the "order" to install the estring early [I missed the early 4:00 closing time!!] Phil has dr nouri at 1:30 [for ?? long] need PU at 1:00 2220 lake road belmont & walgreens after bought 2 crazeewear pants tl: $91 ... solid brown & grey carbon pattern used chazonbass ... invoice #AB-34207 |
15 • • INSTALL BUTRANS PATCH MAYBE @ BRADS W/PHIL ??XXX MESMERIZED BY BRIAN COX VIDEO ON UNIVERSE TIMELINE IN A YEAR ME maybe feeling sick??? taking MMS-- NOSE WASHES, NAPS... FEELING BETTER IN AFTERNOON paid Mele 2400 which is 2 days extra [800] needed extra for some bills.. EEK got 1 ALIVE BLUE Hydrogen WATER yes for only $81!! but wait... there's more ... chazonbass ... order #4B3C035280# EEK #2 - also got MITOLYN - 3 bottles weight loss & inflation & youth... yeah... chazonbass ... $147 ...order # 7DYCZX3E -----almost 1 day of nursing? Elliot Weil, CPA Tax Director elliot@olarry.com 650-345-8400 OLarry | 1700 S El Camino Real #506, San Mateo, CA HAWLEY WINERY & VINEYARDS 6387 W. Dry Creek Rd. Healdsburg *** DOUBLE GOLD - 2021 Malbec, Glen Oaks Ranch GOLD - 2022 Home Blend GOLD - 2022 Pinot Noir, Oehlman Vineyard GOLD - Reserve Pinot Noir, Tanuda Ridge *** GOLD - 2021 Estate Merlot GOLD - 2023 Rosé of Pinot Noir, Sonoma Coast |
↙↙↙↙↙↙↙↙↙↙↙↙↙↙↙↙↙↙↙↙↙↙↙↙√↙RE INCOME TAX... THERE IS A LARGE FOLDER CALLED "EDD DOCS IN THIS COMPUTER Carolyn next wk 380 3217 text Jacquelin also need 2ning... 291 4641 txt PIP LIKES DR GREENWALD [LOOK UP -PAMF] GEN: "ESTRACE" ESTRADIOL 0.01% VAG CREAM W/ APPLICATOR INSTAL B4 BED INJECTED ESTROGEN GEL FOR 12 HRS WHITE OINTMENT ANYA CALLED ... MONTHS NOT YET AVAILABLE FOR BOTH MEDS... HER SUPERVISING MD: MICHAEL COHN - HE'LL COME OUT SOON USE BUTRANS OATCH AGAIN TECH QUESTIONS W/ DARIO- GO OVER THINGS THAT HEAT UP BATTERY- ACTIVITY MONITOR /CPU HIST/... QUIT FIREFOX? ---OTHER WAYS TO SAVE BATT CHARGE? GET 2 LAPS TO MELD! GET PHOTOS TO CLOUD ---FINDER WINDOW USED TO HAVE MORE LEFT COLUMN LOCATIONS ---CONTROL KEYS TO RESTART/RESET PRAM OR WHATEVER EQUIVALENT NOW ---ADVICE ON SAFARI FROM: CLEANERONE.TRENDMICRO.COM CURSOR UI VIEW SERV NOT RESPONDING? p says take probiotics w/ cranberry [nature's truth at amazon] estrogen cream a little goes on the urthera at bedtime - - - "estradiol vaginal cream 0.01% unscented" adlmin w/ finger 2x weekly generic for "estrace vaginal cream 42.5 gm" prasco /hampton laine use a little on finger every night on opening of urethera |
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16 CAROLYN 650 380 3217 TXT ??? 635 16th MP console, springs 2ning [or next wk] Q 250-270 didn't answer GET STRINGS 4 PHIL J COG VERY LOW, UTI STILL BAD!! TRY TO GET MACRO EA. 8HRS! CALLED LORRIEANN RE TAX & COMPU SHE SAID WCB SOON |
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18 mains at 3pm - J 5pm started cefdinir call pathways re E-string... have dr B fax: 408 730 8715 "attn home health dept" [called dr B office @230] Im still fighting nasal cold... 10:45 ME Dr Berquist - ZOOM ME follow up... STILL LOW PEE? JUST WAIT FOR 3 mo IMPROVEMENT? FROM ALFUZOSIN & PROSCAR? up ask re saw palmetto >>notes also contact Dr Kim re parathyroid hormone test - called left mess 240 tues I'm getting finasteride? eeek!! for prostate shrinkage?? with side fx like depression/suicide? CALL: MAYBE TAKE PHIL'S GUITAR to him for clearifucation |
19 there was a NWFFACIM MEETING W/ THE TUTTLES at that one guy's |
20 • • • • MAINS 330AM late... cause shawn the sheep was on!! 11AM Path PT ANN here for eval? called from 408 242 0672 J was VERRRY sleepy, did stand up 30 sec ... but woke up better by 100 ... not sure why so low? also was crying with very bad leg pains maybe gether to cooperate later with: income tax and secret data/pw's etc 2 pm ACIM EVENT SEE EMAIL SAT 15TH >>> Take PJ guitar to him ≈ 3pm INCOME TAX » HELP! «« B4 APRIL «« get Jackies secret data located and copied!! |
21 1130 nurse noralyn pathways 1PM RENNEE COUNCILOR [Palleative care] I need to be way less negative... when she wants to walk... i say like "let's go for it!!" "Congratulations!", Good Job!" never use the word "CAN'T" instead "YOU WILL SOON" make poster of exercises... dr Berk - 6 more caps to cvs go see piano shop at 1021 washington 650 759 9002 brian F |
22 look for 2021 estate merlot from Hawley wines... see side panel >>> at the fitness doctor.com ... >>> 1030 1/2 hr chant study w/ phone call JACKIE STILL HAS: 1. UTI PAIN ... SHOULD BE GONE BY NOW 2. THE PROB OF: VERY LOW ENERGY... W/EYES SHUT & NO REPLY UNLESS I SHOUT "JACKIE" WHICH IRRITATES HER!! DOES THIS GO AWAY WHEN THE UTI IS FURTHER AWAY?? SO COOPERATION W/ EXERCISES IS NOT AVAILABLE YET |
he's more heinous.... than uranus a tyrannous emiritus a scurrilous disinheritance TO PREVENT "ALIEN MIND CONTROL" OR EVEN MICROWAVES ... VELOSTAT 8-12 LAYERS SHAPED IN HAT, TAKES 4 HRS MICHAEL MENKIN - "thought-screen hat" Dr Berq - new blood test toconfirm low test now better treatment than years ago w/ Dr Hsu might even be covered "Jatenzo" another option is Enclomiphine[sp] also injections & gel for urethera eeek have to be shown in office!! --- also mentioned is FINASTERIDE OR PROPETIA - for hair loss... side effects are loss of sex don't mix w/ diltiazem - depression suicidal thoughts |
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23 J SUPER COGNIZANT!! 1-5 AM Brad &B rick here ≈ 1200ish DON'T SKIMP ON ALK GROIN SPRAY- THIS IS NOT RASH HASH HANNAH!! goes well with BACTINE.. NO BURN! ALSO EAT BREAD & MELTED BUTTER B4 MMS!! Went to see Jack for green sups in lRed Shores FASTING TONIGHT!! |
24 FAST BLOODTEST •RE-ORDER DILAUDID@TEDS 10:30 Monique to DMV TECH QUESTIONS 4/ DARIO- ---THINGS THAT HEAT UP BATTERY- ACTIVITY MONITOR /CPU HIST/... QUIT FIREFOX? AM USED TO TELL ME WHICH URL'S WERE TAKING UP MEM. seems like more than usual ---OTHER WAYS TO SAVE BATT CHARGE? ---GET 2 LAPS TO MELD! GET PHOTOS TO CLOUD ---FINDER WINDOW USED TO HAVE MORE LEFT COLUMN LOCATIONS ---WHAT ARE CONTROL KEYS TO REFRESH/RESET PRAM OR WHATEVER IS EQUIVALENT NOW ---ADVICE ON SAFARI FROM: CLEANERONE.TRENDMICRO.COM [what better advice to use?] ---CURSOR UI VIEW SERV NOT RESPONDING? CPU HIST SHOWS RED |
25 • • • BUTRANS • • • 9-11 DAVID @ purcor pest solutions 100 Dr Nouri ME- stop flecanide 4 afib got date for TEE & CV called path re e-string install Donna tomorrow >>> & PT ANN CAUFMAN again BUTRANS patch installed!! FASTING TONIGHT!! do bloodtest tomorrow!! >>> donated 102.53 to NWACCIM thru paypal w/4570 Transaction ID: 9UY37229EL832824D donated 200 to "ENVIORNMENT CALIF." w/ CC 4570 to save bees from destruction |
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27 - - [NITA-2] XX1100 Brittany again... J decided NO on eRing did exers 1,2 5ea 200 Dr Berquist Vid Apt for J BETTER HYGENE - -START KEFLEX [continual MED 2 STOP UTI] ALSO :: suppositories can replace ring BUT FALL OUT... INCREASE GABA TO 3X? DOES EACH NEW UTI LOWER COG MOR??! YES, get OMNICEF 4 RESERVE /OLLOW UP 1MO HOPEFULLY WE CAN GET THIS DONE SOON! CALLED BRITTNY AT 300 LEFT MESG HOME HEALTH WILL BE SCHEDULED W/ BRITTANY OR DONNA [CANCEL?] ATTEMPT Insert of E-ring repeat every 90 days!?? FOR PAIN CONTROL: 1.5? Dilaudid [ a half wasn't enough ] SOME MEDS J HAS ON QUESTIONAIRES Methenamine belongs to the family of medicines called anti-infectives. It is used to help prevent and treat infections of the urinary tract Naloxone is a medicine that rapidly reverses an opioid overdose. Promethazine 4 nausea/vomit Spironolactone is used in combination with other medicines to treat high blood pressure (hypertension) and heart failure. |
28 maybe see Jack Chang in SM re sups ? or wait till sun 4 local PU at Red Shores PIANO JOB CAROLYN 650 380 3217 635 16TH AVE MENLO PARK SOME KEYS STICK - STORY-CLRK CONSL est 250 ish springs? |
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2 [NITA] √ Go see Jack for sups in RED W Shores √ for 586.69 √ >>> TOTAL WINE & WOW!!! 2250 Bridgepointe Pkwy San Mateo, has Cali Red -no- one 6 for $9.50 but many others ..gal there showed me $5/bottle order online @19crimes.com i could only fine $15... look 4 Château Miraval Brad Peet's wine ordered 1 amaz window shade here: 5x8ish 3 / 21- 4/11 phone pic make poster of exercises √ @ BstBuy look for adaptor or new thumb drive 4 both types of usb |
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5 Get MMS ready for Mele Reached out to 10:00 Yoon [nurse from path] to discharge ...but PT continues... asked for hospice maybe [for pain meds] 650 826 4540 . . . 30- min visit Got call from Shanna McCullegan possible HOSPICE Intake at Pathways well contact again next week ? 408 593 6696 2:00 take PJ to walgreens ?? TIME ?? PATHWAYS NURSE SUNGMI?? PT ANN KAUFMAN?? INCOME TAX » HELP! «« B4 APRIL «« found jpegs for :: 5/22/20 - 6/9/21 - $30,338 ... [05/16/20 ?] |
6 930 ANYA ??? increase Butrans? XXX Ann Kauffman PT ZPath wow- tried to get dilaudid online... COMMUNITYMEDS.COM maybe a scam...glad i used the wallet card maybe they get the message and then it's sent... not so easy but looks good-ish... a guy, DINESH from europe called from 1 786 671 3134 [it says telemarketer] very hard to understand, but said I need a vinmo account first then i can get 90 pills for ≈ $600 MAYBE THE 70K SHOULD BE PUT IN SAVINGS IN CASE I GET HACKED NOW THAT IM IN SOME SHADY SITUATIONS TRIM BACK YARD CLEAN OUT CAR & |
7 • RENEE 130 IN MORNNING GO 2 CHASE...put most of the 70K in savings & move monthly approx ammount to checking from savings |
8 2oo RON SEIGLMAN TAXES 1700 El Camino Real, Ste 506 San Mateo, CA 94402 (650) 345-8400 found jpegs for :: 5/22/20 - 6/9/21 - $30,338 ... [05/16/20 ?] wil bring on drive & also laptop need keep on w/ debit card increases |
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10 Call Javerbaum re Sumatriptan Call Jack Pardeen re J name change 100 John Bard Q240C 66 cedar SC C 240 408 838 1638 AKKKroSoniKKK »»»BILLS««« |
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12 9:30-10 Jack Chang $980 FIND √BOOK!! 12:00 Ann K. PT path - [discharging] √ ordered ozembic √ look 4 gens. 4 fri> • find county tax building off ralston ... & get dups of latest tax bill • Call in FSTV donation 1:30 Linda Mackin dignity health [ from dr brinsky] » J went from irritable to super loving at 1:00! « cancelled Masi/me/pj |
13 forgot J antibiotic till 8 AM -next: 6PM POWER OUTAGE>> ASK JACK ABOUT ACCUPUNCT NERVE BLOCK FOR UTI PAIN & OTHERS RE GETTING ON COMMODE LEAVE 1245 FOR DARIO'S TAKE THIS COMP!! PICK UP AT 400 LEAVE 400 & GO TO: 430 - AAA RENT the honda 3000 gens $85/day they know service people GET INFO 6:00 J ANTIBIOTIC INCOME TAX » HELP! «« B4 APRIL «« |
14 PGE CANCELLED OUTAGE 800 - AAA opens 730 -500 has the honda 3000 gens $85/day San Mateo Lawnmower has our honda gen 3000 for repair 760 So Aphlet Blvd SM 650 348 0359 lunar eclipse |
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18 11:00 √in 11:15 Zoom w/ Dr Brk STILL VERY PAINFUL !! pernium antibiotic spray? other technique/solutions to mix antibiotic with pernium spray to stop UTI'S? Prod: Keflex & Methenamine? Uri-Calm cranberry pills? outside the box thinking? Better health givers? these are F's? See dario re macs call chron re subscrptn 415-777-7000 - b4 12 a new NOURI apt for me>>? PROPERTY TAX used BofA visa last dec tax.smcgov.org $1722.WITH $40 fee !! USE CHECKS - when not last minute..FREE! |
19 I think i got the sample there 11AM Brads studio > 2 ish INCOME TAX » HELP! «« B4 APRIL «« unemployment 1099c's should arrive in 9 days [2020-2021] J had 2 much pain & we gave 2 dilaudids- created crisis? Cog way down, even vomiting... needed the ER - use 1/2's now... J to ER: 330AM to 1030AM |
20 J still not eating...tiny bit of soup only 2-3 pills xxxxoops 245 DR BERQ UROLOGY SEQ clinic me! maybe find out re J labs? «« »•» ![]() |
21 CALLED DR NOURI RE APT ask if skip still ok 1200 Jack √left new foods, 130 Renée [office called] xx 300 Renée √ UNEMPLOYMENT RECORDS See dario re macs call chron re subscrptn 415-777-7000 - √ a new NOURI apt for me? PROPERTY TAX√ GITTAR STRINGS donated 110 to DCCC [4570] MELE WANTS ADVANCE J MUCH BETTER - ALMOST CAME OUT FOR DINNER |
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24 J @ sequoia getting better > prob 1 more day... See dario re macs |
25 J @ sequoia getting better > J to home ROYAL AMBULANCE [WHEELCHAIR VAN] 11-2 Donovans in 1 week dental apt >>vv |
26 11:oo C Dr Nouri - I'M a MVP candidate for MITRAL-clip - IF they could be persuaded to allow MUCH too healthy ME to skip the chainsaw operation!! call fri >>>> get new Nouri apt in 1 mo. TOOK PIC OF ROYAL AMBULANCE [WHEELCHAIR VAN] PAYMT OF $99 that got paid somehow...? |
27 KEEP taking LEVAQUIN in PM 930: CALLED DR BERQUIST RE UTI RETURN at sequoia 22-25th [650 306 1015] katheryn NOW taking LEVAQUIN LEVOXYTHYROXIN - before she was very briefly taking AUGMENTIN - AMOXYCILLIN - maybe BOTH? - complete NO NO NO!! called new: "Home Health Bay Area" 650 590 8300 they will call Dr Berquist ^ also CALLED 4 APT: HEARING-AIDS 4/7 GENRATOR [ fri 14th] - no el worko bueno San Mateo Lawnmower [fri 14th] 'repaired" honda gen EU3000is 760 So Aphlet Blvd SM - 650 348 0359 tested battery ? $200-250 oem get battery # on battery - o'reileys - SC ≈$150 Mighty Max Battery YTX9-BS SLA 125.77 "Super start" is charged the existing batt was probably oki, i just didn't actually try it!!! DUUUUH INCOME TAX » HELP! «« B4 APRIL «« |
28 KEEP taking LEVAQUIN in PM CALLED... we might want ARMANDO? 650 725 2687 - call: [ADD 2 2 2] SANDRA CARDOZA [Dr. Rahul Sharma] RE MITRAL VALVE CLIP CONSULT - MITRA-CLIP ... Dr Bahman Nouri -[DIGNITY] "SEVERE MITRAL VALVE PROLAPSE" [not MOST VALUABLE PLAYER] |
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31 100 - RN. Aubrey from BAHH 650 293 7162 XEliquiscapture new cuture - order goes to sequoia electronically & im dropping off [or maybe a nurse from BAHH?] |
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2 - - 100 S ELLLSWORTH SF AUDIO HEARING-AIDS AIDS 415 376 7825 CALL DR NOOURI FOR APT IN APRIL INCOME TAX » HELP! «« B4 APRIL «« |
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DRAIN CLEARING ADVICE W/ STRONG CHEMICALS: UPCOMING APTS: I can wait, not a problem, and hopefully your wife recovers well from the surgery. If you could find some time between Tuesday Nov 28 to Fri Dec 1 that would be great. You can let me know by email or call me at 650-839-3845. Thanks, Dmitri On Mon, Nov 20, 2023 at 4:45 PM
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10/4th (Wed) 7:00pm District Study @ ZOOM (See "Cynthia's Zoom Link" link below)
"Attaining Buddhahood in This Lifetime" (October Living Buddhism p36+37) 10//11 (Wed) 7pm - 7:45pm Domei Daimoku Toso (from home). 10/21 (Sat) 11am District Discussion @ Koji's 1430 Gordon St., #E, Redwood City CA "Learning From the Afterword to the New Human Revolution" (October Living Buddhism p38+39) 10/30 (Mon) 7pm District Planning On Zoom See "Cynthia's Zoom Link" below ============================================
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Join Zoom Meeting https://us02web.zoom.us/j/6506798138?pwd=KzJLa0doSExtektkbDc0cE1oclp SUT09 (https://us02web.zoom.us/j/6506798138?pwd=KzJLa0doSExtektkbDc0cE1oclpSUT09) Meeting ID: 650 679 8138 Passcode: 20201435 Alt? Pain Dr.s from Dr Fiori's friend Dr Schoenberger? Darren Don, MD 301 Industrial Road, San Carlos, CA 94070 650-596-4090 Carrie Allon Jones, MD 1850 Sullivan Ave, #330, Daly Cily CA 9401 650-756-5630 Joeph Kwok, MD 301 Industrial Road, San Carlos, CA 94070 650-404-8444 Lucas Campos, MD and Toulan Razi. MD 2410 Merced Street. San Leandro. CA 94577 510-278-2700 Josaph Fanerty, MD 100 South San Maleo Drive, San Mateo, CA 94401 650-696-4592 Darlen Behravan, MD 13960 East 14th Street, Suile 200, San Leandro, CA 94578 510-614-9200 Hoyman Hong, MD 34 North San Mateo Drive, San Mateo, CA 94401 650-513-6651 Konrad Ng, MD, Adrian Bartoll, MD and Claudio Palma, MD 1580 Valencia Sireet, Suite 809, San Francisco, CA 94110 415-810-0950 Mark Sontag, MD, David Smolins, MD, Adam Stoller, MD, Elaine Date, MD, Neeti Bathla, MD, George Rakkar, MD, and Priyanka Ghosh, MD. 1900 O'Farrell Street, Suite 190, San Mateo, CA 94403 650-306-9490 Stanford Pain [MIS] Management Clinic 450 Broadway Street, Redwood City, CA 94063 UCSF Pain Management Clinic 2255 Post Street. San Francisco. CA 94143 Your primary care physician can rofer you Daniel Glatt, MD and Andrew Glatt, MD 1860 El Camino Real, Suite 301, Burlingame, CA 94010 650-552-8100 Francis Wong, MD and Raymond Gaeta, MD 795 El Camino Real, Palo Alto, CA 94301 650-934-7440 [from a photo on ch's Iphone may 10 2023] Proximal tibiofibular joint instability is a rare [?] pathologic condition that may result in painful subluxations and neuritic symptoms from irritation of the common peroneal nerve. The incidence of proximal tibiofibular joint instability is underestimated because of spontaneous reduction and underdiagnosis but is highest in athletes who participate in sports that involve twisting or pivoting on a flexed knee. Current surgical treatment options include internal fixation, arthrodesis, fibular head resection, direct ligament repair, and ligament reconstruction with the use of a free graft; A Dr in Dallas, Keith Maister, operated on elbow of 49 player Purdy's ulner collateral ligement tried to contact Robert LaPrade, MD, PhD EDINA- CROSSTOWN OFFICE 4010 W. 65th St. Edina, MN 55435 https://drrobertlaprademd.com/contact-us/ 7:00 pm Welcome: and Introduction of Study Topic: "Living the Noblest Life Possible as a Human Being". May Living Buddhism pp36-37... Cynthial 7:05 pm Presentations: Bill & Kathy (with experiences). 7:20 pm Break-out room Discussion 7:40 pm Open Sharing (everyone) 7:55 pm Announcements and closing PLEASE READ THE MATERIAL IN THE MAY 2023 LIVING BUDDHISM ON PAGES 36 AND 37. Questions for discussion: 1) Taking initiative fills us "with joy and and upsurge of energy." How does practicing Buddhism help you advance with joy? 2) What goals do you want to accomplish this month? GENERIC REPLIES |
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RAJPUR 1/28/24: VIEW CODE FOR FORMATTING... — THIS IS WHAT IT'S ALL ABOUT — ~~~~ A Course in Miracles introduces the radical idea that Man’s function is that of “co-creator with God,” clearly expressing the idea that God and Man are inseparable, are indeed One, and yet somehow discrete, one from the other. The question is, in practical terms, what does this mean? It means that Creation is the divine capacity of Mind to reflect back upon Itself, causing the experience of Self-Awareness. It can only be described as a co-creative process which requires the total freedom of Free Will . . . and is inseparable from you as the Conscious Experience of Being. Why is this important? Because it is hard to relate to what it means, and yet it is a central point in A Course in Miracles. It is important because it seems to be a spiritual theory, instead of something which everyone is suffering from the ignorance of. Just sit with that for a moment. Why is it important? Because even though it is a central point in A Course in Miracles, it is hard to relate to what it means. It is important because it seems to be a spiritual theory, instead of something which everyone is suffering from the ignorance of and therefore requires attention. So, here’s the way it works: When Free Will is absent, co-creation is impossible. In It’s place is pure, unadulterated narcissism: The addictive preoccupation with “oneself” which is mistakenly believed to be the only meaning there is of “selfhood.” And this tiny, exclusiveness is what The Fall was all about! In Biblical terms, the Fall occurred when two joined together in an act of independence from Their Source, becoming preoccupied with a new-found tiny sense of “self.” And, in the insecurity of this now ungrounded frame of mind, they inadvertently became consumed by guilt and fear, suddenly becoming defended and at odds with everything—including the one with whom they had joined in getting the divorce from God. This was an illegitimate and artificial imposition upon the Holy Sons and Daughters of God that never really happened, and is a constant call for correction. This is why it is so important. You see? Now, here is the truth! It is an absolute fact that co-operation (which is the correction to the imposition), can only occur in the environment of Free Will. Co-operation is another word for co-creation. And it is inseparable from omnipotence, omnipresence and omniscience—the indivisible singularities of That which is All-Knowing, All-Presence, and All-Wise. God being All. Be alert now for the lingering influence of memory. Everyone is conditioned to interpret what I’m sharing as the provision of new learning materials—data, facts, tools—for coming to new conclusions, new decisions and new actions in the world. I’m not! I am inviting the shift of Attention from those overt actions of mind to the subtler, more profound nature of experience! And this is the critical point! I am not talking about facts to be learned, memorized, and incorporated into a body of “understanding” which will be useful in controlling life better. Indeed, even though A Course in Miracles is identified as an educational document, it is not about facts with which to modernize one’s mind, and therefore his life. No! It’s about learning to pay Attention! As an experience, it can be put this way: How many times have you lost something and searched and searched for it, only to finally give up, stop looking for it, and suddenly realize that you’re looking right at it and hadn’t seen it? You might even have involuntarily blurted out, “Oh, my God! There it is!” Likewise, it’s not inconsequential that the description of Creation in the first chapter of the Bible does not say that “God saw everything that He had made and . . . ho-hum . . . it was okay.” No! It says, “God saw everything that He had made, and BEHOLD! It was VERY GOOD.” Creation is a Beholding! A Discovery! And therefore co-creation is that same Beholding. That same Discovery! But how? In consonance with the statement, “God is my strength. Vision is His gift to me,” yesterday’s Lesson states: “Above all else, I want to see.” And then today’s Lesson illuminates it further: “Above all else, I want to see things differently.” Indeed! A shift of Attention! A willing abandonment of whatever you have been conditioned to see. And then tomorrow’s Lesson #29: “God is in everything I see.” “The idea for today explains why you can see all purpose in anything. It explains why nothing is separate, by itself or in itself. And it explains why nothing you see means anything. In fact, it explains every idea we have used thus far, and al subsequent ones as well. Today’s idea is the whole basis for vision. “You will probably find this idea very difficult to grasp at this point. You may find it silly, irreverent, senseless, funny and even objectionable. Certainly God is not in a table, for example, as you see it. Yet we emphasized yesterday that a table shares the purpose of the universe. And what shares the purpose of the universe shares the purpose of its Creator. “Try then, today, to begin to learn how to look on all things with love, appreciation and open-mindedness. You do not see them now. Would you know what is in them? Nothing is as it appears to you. Its holy purpose stands beyond your little range. When vision has shown you the holiness that lights up the world, you will understand today’s idea perfectly. And you will not understand how you could ever have found it difficult.” [My underlining] Yes! When the experience of Vision is had, when the A-ha! occurs, when the light bulb of recognition illuminates your Being and holiness is experienced, Love is experienced, instead of words and definitions and things, you will be experiencing the Atonement. You will be experiencing It right here in the world that has been lit up by holiness . . . not as the result of the rehearsal or application of positive thinking, but in the innocence of humble, quiet but vibrant Attention—the bringing of curiosity into play, rather than doubt or confidence. This is what it’s all about! Rajpur Kingston, Washington January 28, 2024 POST TRUTH POST: . . . The Post-Truth Era Is Truth important any more? Is It now passé? Was It ever really valid? Or was It simply a useful concept like those of “reason” and “logic” with which to manipulate and finesse one another into some sense of harmony that would otherwise be unavailable in the “structureless chaotic nature” of being? Has Truth been nothing more than imagination brought to bear upon disorder, suggesting the presence of principles and therefore of structure or stability which provided comfort even though they were imaginations? In the “Post-Truth Era,” are we just now discovering the unnerving fact that there is no Truth? So it would seem. The idea that whatever is said, if said confidently and often enough, can be safely believed and relied upon requires the suspension of common sense. In that state of suspension, illusion becomes an involving alluring substitute for Reality, and in that state of suspension Reality becomes an unwelcome intruder, disturbing the continuity and attractive nature of the illusion, disallowing for communication with anyone who is not participating in the illusion and causing the loss of friends or communication with family members who have suddenly become strangers because their perception of Truth has changed. To be sure, the suspension of common sense on the basis of faith in the words of another is not always a result of coercion. It is often engaged in as an escape from things difficult to deal with or an avoidance of self-responsibility. The point is that no matter what the reason, “suspending common sense” results in suspending Truth. It is Truth which allows for the distinction to be made between Reality and unreality, right and wrong, honesty and dishonesty, and the reason is that Truth is the measure of things. It is not only important and valid, It is absolute! It is like light. You bring darkness to it and the light discloses that darkness is not there. You bring illusions to Truth and Truth discloses that they are not there. Truth is absolutely dominant, and is the measure which, because It is unchangeable, discloses no disease where disease had seemed to be, no misunderstanding where misunderstanding had seemed to be, and life where death had seemed so imminent and real. There is no post-Truth era, unless one wants a justification for being dishonest, ill, hateful, prejudiced, and on and on. Talk about the In the Post-Truth Era, Truth is not particularly popular or valuable or valued. Personal opinions are. Mutual agreements and mutual disagreements and the negotiations which lie therein are more highly valued than the two-step, the holy instant, the act which asks of Truth, “What is Truth?” and then gives voice to the Voice for Truth. Truth is what the lie is a substitute for. There is much grief, sadness, anger and disillusionment being felt presently, and the primary reason is that it is demoralizing for the repeated practice of lying, of misrepresentation, of vacillating from one position to another, to be engaged in as though it’s nothing more than a way of communicating—senseless though it might be. It is demoralizing for Truth to be misrepresented as meaningless—or as meaning whatever you choose it to be at any given time. If you are experiencing these feelings, it means you have taken the bait and are doubting Truth, doubting Its absoluteness, doubting that It is the absolute measure of all things, reporting the presence of God there, there, there, and over there. It means that you have been finessed into the belief that the meaninglessness of Truth is holding sway and may be lost forever. That is dispiriting! You may feel all alone in your awareness that Truth is still real and valuable, that it is Truth Which gives Meaning to everything, to all that God is being (and He is being All), but you may rest assured that even in your apparent aloneness, you are anchored in Reality, in Sanity, and are being the Measure that those who have suspended common sense—abandoned Truth—will use to make their way back into the conscious experience of what Reality is. Patience and forbearance will see you through. Personhood or Brotherhood What will provide you with this patience and forbearance is understanding what causes the loss of the capacity to distinguish Truth from illusion, and it’s quite simple. In the mutual agreement of two Sons and/or Daughters of God to get a divorce from their Father by choosing to define Creation in their “own” creative ways, they simply substituted “thinking” for “attention.” Instead of being the observing of Creation with the Father and confirming it as the Father’s—performing their Function as co-creators with God—they stopped giving their attention to Creation with Him and began “thinking” of new definitions to apply to the constantly forthcoming manifestation of the Movement of the Mind of God so that they might have the audacity to confirm it as theirs. What they didn’t realize was that they were establishing a sense of “personhood” that they would have to fill with personal preferences, perspectives and goals which would form a persona—a definition of themselves which they would have to interminably midwife anew into the world, having forgotten that their identity was already forever unchangeably established in the Mind of God. And so it is today. Put another way, they created egos for themselves and for each other. In this way, instead of providing themselves with incredible freedom of self-expression and authority, they actually adopted an imprisoning form of privacy—an unconsciousness of the infinite perspective which was theirs by Birthright—functioning rather like a black hole, irresistably pulling the experience of Being down into an experience of “becoming,” and therefore one of eternal dissatisfaction. And so it is today. This irresistable lure to give birth to an ever-improved persona caused the process of creating and negotiating new mutual agreements to become one of pure competition, and the only tools available to be used were the two unexpected elements that came into play at the time of the separation . . . which were Fear and Guilt. And so it is today. Now, Fear and Guilt, as an everpresent frame of mind, coupled with Fear and Guilt as the only means of accomplishing anything in relationships, is an unnatural condition, and no matter how skillful one may have become in “forcing” a peaceful arrangement of people and things, anger resides just below the surface. One’s divine Sanity remains, whether one is behaving insanely or not, and does not allow for peace when one is insisting upon being a persona—when one is out of his right Mind. This anger is a wake-up call. It says, “Notice how you’re using your Mind!” It is a call for the holy instant. It is a call for Brotherhood instead of personhood—a call for joining with your fellowman after first joining with the Father and undoing the divorce, the separation. In fact, it must be done for your fellowman, else one is still serving person-hood. But, when one is caught up in a sense of a private mind, separate and apart from his brother, it’s tricky! The anger is projected out onto the world and his fellowman, and they are the cause of his distress—not him and his poor use of his Mind. Missing the cue, he walks around like a live grenade, ready to blow, but intent on not blowing by using fear and guilt to manipulate everyone and everything by the sheer force of his will. Although the undercurrent of anger doesn’t keep one from distinguishing Truth from illusion, it causes one to opt for illusion because it seems that is the only thing one can control. But here’s the problem. If the anger is aroused, if there is a rabblerouser or warmonger whose rhetoric inflames one’s anger, discernment becomes impaired, the tares and wheat become indistinguishable, and one trusts the untrustworthy. Anger unchecked causes loss of communication with those who recognize Truth, with those who are trustworthy. When you understand this, you understand what you can and cannot do, and you don’t attempt the impossible. Those who cannot distinguish Truth from illusion, who have spiraled down from Being to “becoming” and have succumbed to anger motivations, require sober observation and prayer. Healing is needed. But until healing is asked for, until healing is wanted, there is nothing you can do except to watch carefully to see that they bring no harm to either of you. The rift seen in so many places on your globe represents the prevailing extremity of fear and the incredibly imbalanced ethic of taking care of Number One, and it represents the willingness to override brotherly love for the sake of self-protection. In the presence of fear aroused to the level of anger—gladly expressed as further division and separation of the Brotherhood, of mankind—it requires the peace-mongers who are not as loud and fiery to stand with patience and forbearance, unmoved in the inner experience of the fact that this is not a Post-Truth Era, that Truth is valid, is important, is not passé, and then share that Knowing which is forthcoming with those who are asking, those who do want to know, those who do want peace, those who are willing to do the work of shifting their allegiance from personhood to Brotherhood. The Correction of Sickness and Sin There is an important learning in this: The correction of sin is different from the correction of sickness. Why? Because sin is an act of will, consciously engaged in, while sickness is a belief entertained as a result of the ignorance of Truth. The sick are healed, whereas the sinner is reformed. And the reformation of the sinner is always the evidence of the decision to abandon self-will. This decision cannot be done for the “sinner” by another, while it can be done for the sick by one bearing witness to his divinity. It may be your clear experience that when you listen for the Voice for Truth on behalf of another there is a change which occurs—healing takes place. And logic may tell you that this must apply to every situation. But when willfulness is exercised for purposes of control and abuse, when dishonesty is practiced for purposes of misleading another for one’s personal gain or to take advantage of him, more is called for than witnessing for the holiness of the one being willful. There is a reason for the existence of the word “repent.” It is because correction—the healing of the “sinner”—will not be effected by simply loving him as God’s self-expression. It is embodied in the words, “Go, and sin no more.” Reformation—changed behavior as the result of a change of heart and mind—is not only essential to the healing of the sinner, it is the healing. This is why I said, “until healing is asked for, until healing is wanted, there is nothing you can do.” The difference between the sick and the sinning is that the sick want healing, while the sinner wants nothing to interfere with his independent self-centered authority—his persona. When one loses a sense of distinction between the ego and the Son of God, he must understand that a correction is needed. He must revisit the moment when a grievance became righteous anger, opening a doorway to confusion—shifting from Brotherhood to personhood. When a lie is still being superimposed on the mind of humanity, it is still a time to be vigilant, and the lie is that man has a mind of his own located in his body and supported by the belief that he is a body—the basis of personhood. You cannot accept the ego as the Son of God. Real change is when you are no longer accepting that the ego is the authorizer and can coexist as the sidekick with the Son of God. The difference between the belief that man is God and the truth that God is all there is to man—the Son of God—must be reckoned with. The Son of God is not a lie and his innocence is preserved by what the Father is being. Let your prayer be, “I simply would not have it otherwise. Thank you, Father, that wholeness is mine, for me and my brother.” And the suspension of common sense ends! Rajpur New Exercises & Data For Jackie ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() PROSTATE PRODUCT INGREDIENTS PROSTA PRIME:
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